To infinity and beyond!

I thought I'd do another post because I had a long break (probably due to snow!) and I was thinking about this topic yesterday. By the way, to anyone who has a new years resolution of losing weight- I had a sudden guilt trip about what I said in the last post and so actually I don't think it's boring :) (please keep reading my blog :D)

Last night I got thinking, what's it like to actually live for eternity? In the day it doesn't seem that big of an issue but last night it seemed to worry me a bit. I mean eternity? What happens after that? It's not the first time I've thought about it. I first thought about it when I was quite young and it scared me. I'm not used to thinking of things in terms of infinity! I need an end.....somewhere. But then I thought that the option of an eternity under the ground doing nothing but hanging out, having a big sleep (that never ends) is even scarier! So I would always choose the less scarier option. An eternity living over eternity doing nothing.

When I talked to people about this I would usually come to the conclusion that 'I'd rather spend eternity in Heaven than in Hell' but this didn't exactly comfort me much. I still got that stomach feeling (like you do when you get to the top of a massive roller coaster) when I thought about eternity. What would I do with all that time? When I just stop and think, my mind runs a riot thinking about it. I might also think that 'Well, all humanity is in the same boat!' but again, didn't find much security in that! Surprise surprise.

Last night I thought about it a bit more. Usually I have to stop because I think I'll explode with confusion. But I continued to think and I'm glad I did. Firstly, I realised my thoughts were not very 'Godly'- what I mean by that is they were either from me or from the devil or somewhere else but not God. If they were from me then God help me because what do I know about anything. I don't know what Liechtenstein is like let alone eternal life. If I base my worries on what I think it'll be like, then that is VERY stupid- I've been wrong many a time!- again, surprise surprise! So if they're from the devil then he's gonna WANT me to be scared. He'll want me to prefer reincarnation or whatever over living forever as normal ol' Nathan. So if what I'm feeling is what the devil wants me to think then surely that's wrong and God wants the opposite for me. Right?

Anything I feel towards 'eternity' which makes me scared/worried or whatever is probably exactly the opposite to what it will actually be like! That makes me feel good! AND it doesn't contradict the nature of God-which the other way did. Bonus! He isn't gonna want me to be petrified about dying or going to Heaven! So yeah, relax! You all probably already know this but just incase I thought it might help- helped me! Peace.